I Miss You

Love Fool: The Cardigans

i know, somehow i know, that you dont miss me too. i know this is just a stupid, unrequited love kind of feelings. i wanted to tell you, but i feel stupid, cuz you might go like,


"ah she's so annoying"
"she's pretty persistent, aint she?" 
"schue, dont u get the message?"
"maybe i should shut my phone off"


or something like that because there's this book i read in form 2.


RL Stine Fear Streets.The Boy Next Door. There's this boy named Scott, who's a mad killer. And he killed Lynette, who went head over heels for him. Well I have to admit Lynette was rather overboard.


funny how i can remember the character still.


I know, its just a book. And yes, I know, we all love being loved. But who the hell knows right, that this someone I'm missing could very well sick of me.


still. i miss you a lot. i miss the time when we talk, we laughed. and the time we sang. it was just, fun, you know. you made me smile. all day long. 

i couldnt sleep from missing you. i lie awake knowing that i am never in your mind. i toss and turn, and keep my phone by my side always, with the false hope that maybe you might call. i yearn to hear your voice. there's so much to tell. so much to laugh at, so much to giggle about.


no, no

just a simple text. a simple text asking how am i will do. a simple text saying you miss me too will be more than enough. a simple text to show that like you, i do linger in your mind too. or at least, shows that you do remember me. will ya?

there's no one in the world, who could replace you

theres this dude. we like the same music. well not all. he doesnt like heavy stuffs, the headbangin that i like. but he likes Muse too. he calls me the way you do. even more mushy-mushy actually.


but no. he couldnt replace you. i tried to like him as much as i like you, but i cant. i tried. i seriously tried. 



but missing you and wanting you like crazy in nights like this makes me ask myself this:


what do i want from you?


you lovin me back? you likin me? us being together?


nahhhh..none of the above. i mean. we dont belong together. not a pair made in heaven. u’re too cute. i’m too cute. and cute people cant marry each other cuz they would make deform babies.


i want nothin from you. i dont even see us as a couple. i dont even see you saying “I LOVE U” to me. i dont even see you likin me, havin a crush on me.


all i ever wanted is, that you would pay attention to me, make me smile and laugh, listen to me, make me happy. be there when i need you. listen to my laughter, listen to my cry. wipe away my tears. tell me i’m beautiful when i’m not. tell me t i’m a great cook when its too salty.  i  want you to know i exist. i want you to feel my presence, feel my charm. i want you to miss me when i’m gone


urrgh, it takes a great deal of love to do that, no?


i miss you a lot.